Thursday, September 29, 2011
Tomorrow afternoon i am coming down to Utah to visit my family and friends for Conference weekend and I am so happy!! I love Rexburg and i consider it my home now, but i am too happy to go back to my hometown and see everyone i love dearly! PLUS i get to see Eric one last time before he goes on his mission to L.A. less than a week from today. i don't know how it will go but I hope it ends well. I like happy endings and I want this to be one of them.... But what will happen is very unpredictable. I am so happy to see my sisters and parents, my cousin Britt, and all my best friends except Adge, because she decided that going to Cali is better than seeing me! hehe Just kidding Adge--you know I love you :) I wish I was leaving today so I could have more time with my family but that is alright. My parents are going down to St. George so my dad can run his annual marathon down there :) GOOD LUCK DAD!! So I won't see half my family until a day into being home. But i'm glad my siblings will be there so I can play with them :) awww I am just so very much excited to go home and see everyone! I leave at 1:00 pm tomorrow and I just can't wait!!
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Hey everyone! I have passed through my second week of college and I feel great! What is even more, is that I just got back from the gym and I feel AMAZING! Today I went on the Elliptical for 3 miles and then I went over to the bikes and got 2.68 miles in ten minutes before I had to go. Oh and did it feel soo good :) I also have officially been off sugar for 5 days now. It feels so empowering to take charge and do what is right for your body. I took for granted exercising and eating healthy. I thank my mom for teaching me how to live healthy, even if I didn't take it seriously until now. I also thank her for getting a trainer, Kristi Attaway, to come teach and motivate me to become healthy and make healthy choices and decisions. I have fully come to understand how bad an attitude toward everything i had up until a week ago and regret it so much. But, you will come to see that I am doing much better. I am eating the right way and exercising as much as possible. I drink so much water that it is ridiculous how many times I have needed the bathroom in a day :) (sorry for the TMI moment) but I feel so good about my life now because of what I am doing, I have been changing for good. I am taking life in both hands and I don't plan on letting go.
ALSO! I am so excited to be getting my new vitamins next weekend!! I can't wait! It may be weird to some that I am excited about vitamins but they are so good for you and I just can't wait! I am too excited!! haha
Life life to the fullest! It is too precious a time to waste, live strong and for a purpose!
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Last night was a week since being in Rexburg and since it was the first friday since school started the restaurant, Sammy's Cafe, had a huge block party. It was so much fun, my room mate Kaitlin and I didn't have anything to do last night so we walked down there around 7:45 and listened to the live bands that were playing and Sammy's is famous for their PIE and CUPCAKE SHAKES, so we just had to try them :) They were SO good! At first we were really skeptical and didn't know what to expect so Kaitlin asked her cousin what her favorite was. She said the Banana Cream Pie Shake was really good so we ordered two of those. They were overflowing and were surprisingly really good!
Here is my more-than-eaten-shake. It had chunks of pie crust and bananas...SOOOO good!!
Also, after we had finished our shakes, we walked back to our apartment, got our PJ's on, pushed our couches together, grabbed our pillows and quilts and watched, Two Weeks Notice :) I had so much fun last night, Kaitlin is awesome and a good sport since I kind of dragged her to the block party :) hehe (Amy was with her family preparing for her marathon the next morning, and Chelsey was with her sister for the night, so it was just the two of us--and I had a great time!)
THEN! This morning I woke up and felt like a cooked breakfast so I made fried eggs and toast!! Ahh it's like my new favorite thing:
Friday, September 16, 2011
Disclaimer: This video post is totally random and i am basically rambling but just wanted to post something for friends and family where they can actually see me and not just words. It also is kinda long so I apologize for that in advance but i hope that doesn't scare you off from watching it. It is just how i roll :) Enjoy!
Thursday, September 15, 2011
So I haven't seen my family in almost a week and they haven't seen me either so I thought I would make a video of my self doing a shout out to my family, but ESPECIALLY to my beautiful, wonderful, caring Mommy because today is her BiRtHdAy!!! So hopefully my family will see this video and know that I love them TOO MUCH! So here is the video:
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
"Life is too short. Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness.
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should and let go of
what you can't change. Love deeply and forgive quickly. Take
chances. Give everything and have no regrets. Life is too
short to be unhappy. You have to take the good with the bad.
Smile when you're sad, love what you got, and always remember
what you had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from
your mistakes but never regret. People change, and things go
wrong but always remember... life goes on!"
-- Author unknown
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Well beautiful people,
I have made it through the second day of college. I have to say, Life is a roller coaster for sure! And an exhausting one at that! But I am slowly easing myself into what life is really. I still feel like I am alone at how lost and stressed I am and that I don't even know what I am even doing here. But, I have been listening to calming music, talking to family and friends, and trying to stay positive as well as keeping the Lord in my heart and always looking toward the scriptures and prayer for guidance and safety. I hope and wish that one day I will feel like I am strong enough and have a good sense of what I am doing that I won't fall to my knees in agony because I have no idea what I am doing. I want this time in my life to be fun and wonderful like everyone talks about it being. I want to love this time like others say I will but I miss my home and family and the support of my family being able to hug me and tell me it's going to be okay with them sitting next to me but instead i am 4 hours/a state away.
Even though I know deep down inside that there are probably hundreds of kids that feel the way I do, I feel like I am the only one. I feel like I am one of the ninety and nine--The lost sheep that needs saving. I feel angels as I sleep, but when I am awake and there is so much going on around me, I am scared and I am lost.
I'm sorry that I sound like a debbie downer and a worrier, I just feel like I needed to express how i feel at the moment to help me feel at least a little bit better. i actually went to my class called: Personal Achievement-- which seems like it is a really fantastic class, and I am thinking it could possibly help me out. I think I am just seeing all the holding hands, kissing, wedding rings, and cute guys that are taken that make me sad too that no guys have come up to me yet. I feel like I really will end up an old lady with 20 cats. And you may tell me that I don't need to worry right now, just have fun! But, it's hard to ignore. So again please forgive me, you might say this was a bit of a venting session for me. But I guess it's good to let it out before bed so I sleep better.
Loves, hugs, kisses and more
Monday, September 12, 2011
So yesterday after church I decided that I needed to make an actual meal that I cooked my self so i put some brown rice in the rice cooker. Then, while it was cooking, I cooked some chicken tenders, sauteed some yellow onions, green onions, and squash. A dash of salt and a tablespoon of Italian dressing and I had my first meal that I cooked in my new home! :) it was great and there were leftovers that I put in the fridge for another time when I don't feel like cooking! So below is a picture of the end product before I mix it with the brown rice:
Does it look yummy?? I thought it was, but maybe that was because I was so hungry, eating lunch at like 2:45 is really late!
Also it was the first day of COLLEGE!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was really good, my professors are funny and seem really good, I am still not sure about the class yet but right now they seem interesting and good. I did have a bit of a breakdown a few hours after my first class because my printer isn't working and so it's stressing me out and I am trying to put a brave face on but I am struggling a little bit trying to transition into being own my own and away from family but I will learn to survive and I just have to tell myself that it WILL get better!
I got this taken right before I left for my first class :)
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Well folks, I made it to college and it's not bad. I mean, I had my meltdowns and my frustrations, but in all it's pretty good! I think I will be able to survive on my own, and all my room mates are super cute and really sweet! And, my room looks so cute! I will do an all picture blog post on my new little home in little ole' Rexburg! It is really a cute little town and the grocery store is just down the street and they deliver! So, I can walk to the store, buy my week supply of food and then walk home and they will bring it to my apartment!! I was so excited when my mom told me, actually I was more like giddy but there isn't much of a difference!
So yesterday I moved up and got everything settled and now today I am going to walk around campus and get myself familiar with everything so i am good for monday when classes start! The campus is small enough that you can walk everywhere no problem! And, where I live, campus is exactly 2 min away, walking there, which is really super-duper nice! Everyone is so friendly and happy and I love it! Plus there are people everywhere that are so nice to help you find things and get you to where you need to go, it really is quite charming--once you have left the moving in and school supplies shopping behind, and had a good nights rest :) But, seriously i think I am going to love it here! The landscape definitely reminds me of being home so I guess it's is alright that I am here instead of in Utah. I really do feel at home finally. I might have just been a little too worried to enjoy Rexburg yesterday, but I am enjoying it now.
Mom and Dad, if you are reading this:
I love you SO much, you have no idea how grateful I am to you and all the lessons and care that you have given me and for all the love in the world that you have shown me. You really did a wonderful job in raising me and helping me become who I am today. Now it's my turn to show you that all your hard work has payed off.
Shaelie, Camille, Makenna, and Brynlee:
I also love you girls SO much! You have been wonderful sisters and I love each and everyone of you too much, you have no idea. Shaelie, I may be away but we will always be sisters but most importantly you will always best my bestest friend EVER! What do you call an ill camel? CAMILLE! Do I love you and miss your teasing me? Yes I do! I hope you know how much I love you even if I don't always seem like it, I really do. You are amazing and smart and talented! And I dearly miss you! Makenna and Brynlee, my sweet little sugar bugs! I hope you treat your sisters and mommy and daddy very nice while I am gone. Don't ever stop giggling and being silly!
Alyssa loves all of you so much and misses you too! I will be home soon, but I am meant to be here right now and I know that I will be okay on my own but that doesn't mean I don't want lots of phone calls, text messages, emails, and hand-written letters! Loves, hugs, and kisses!
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Okay, it's crunch time people. I move out of my parents house and leave to go to Idaho next week!! I can't believe I will be living on my own so soon, it's come so fast! It is really exciting and crazy and slightly scary but I think I am ready. This time next week I will have woken up in a new home with new people and I would be doing all new things, by myself. It is too crazy, can you believe it? I am all grown up, I guess. haha I have to pack up my ENTIRE room this week so that Shaelie can move into my room. How sad! I won't have a room here in my house anymore! But it is okay because:
"Just because everything is changing, doesn't mean it's never been this way before."
--Regina Spektor, The Call (lyrics)
Positive thinking here :)