Thursday, June 20, 2013

Confidence Booster

Some days are hard. Some are harder. But there are those that just seem to glisten with hope -- those are the great days. This week had been a mix of both good and bad but how I feel right now is perfect. I reflect on what has happened in the last seven days and I just have to smile.

Nothing really happened. Nothing really does right now because "summer school" is not so fun when you see on facebook, instagram, etc all the fun things people are doing. You know things like going to the beach, getting engaged, touring Europe, getting engaged, DIY craft days, ... did I mention get engaged? And I am just sitting over here like, YAY! twelve page paper and an eight minute speech.... so not fun. But hey, a girl has got to do what she needs to, to be ahead of the game, right?

Anyways, like I said, there wasn't anything huge or exciting that happened this week but I feel like I was  being smooshed under a 15000 pound boulder and now I am flying. No, scratch that... I feel like I am soaring!

The first of the week was pretty rocky, so I emailed my parents some concerns that I was just having a really hard time with. The next morning my dad asked if he could call and talk to me. It was so nice to talk to him about my problems and to get really constructive but ever so loving advice that really opened my eyes to the greater picture of why I was feeling the way I was. My dad seriously is so great because as a businessman he likes to look at what is wrong and how can I make the situation better. Basically, what are the solutions and how do we go about that solution.

I made me think about what was really happening and by changing a very simple detail in the scheme of things, it has alleviated a lot of the downpour and left me quite light on my feet. I feel so much happier. I feel the best part of the change was that I was proactive. I went out immediately to fix the problem and to stay aware of how I was treating life and in what situations I was setting myself up for.

I think that as long as we are focused and determined in fixing a situation no matter how big or small, that we will always feel so much more positive energy. Even to the point that I have forgotten everything that didn't go so well. I see the good and the great that came out of this week.

Also, something that one of my teachers said was, "No matter how you think you did in there just now, you did great!" *talking about practicing teaching the first lesson in Preach My Gospel for the first time to "investigators"* I feel there is a lesson there. That we have to look at our effort in a positive light and tell ourselves that our attempts to be successful were great, because there is always going to be reason for improvement but just because something is in need of improvement, doesn't mean that it was terrible.

That right there was a confidence booster. And the fact that someone in my public speaking class said that I was cool... yup, I am feeling pretty special :) hahaha I did my speech today on blogging, and my professor loved it!

I hope everyone has a marvelous weekend! I know I will... *hint, hint* *wink,wink*

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Longing for the East

My heart can't seem to stop longing for the East Coast and the sound of that southern drawl.... 
The humid night breezes and the magical twinkle of fireflies.... 
The kindest people you ever did see and the lush, dark green forests that cover 75% of the land. 

The mysteries of what awaits this twenty-something Utahn is absolutely irritating. It's the kind of longing that keeps you up at night -- and makes you want to stay in bed just five more minutes to dream a little longer about. I dream [secretly] of becoming a true Southern Bell...