Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Just Thinking...

You know lately I have been thinking about my future and what is happening in my life and how everything is about to change and it will never be the same and it is frightening, refreshing, exuberayting, and quite frankly an intangible idea that my future is behind the next corner and yet I have no idea what to expect.
Plus, as of right now I am planning on college and going into an English Major so that I can write fantasy/fiction novels because it has been a passion of my for a long, long, long time but no one can really plan for what the future truly has in store for an individual and that is something that is exciting but also extremely terrifying all in one small seemingly sweet package.

I mean, what is there to say? Other than I put a brave face on when looking into the eyes of uncertainty and change but in the back of my head I picture my knees knocking together and my whole stature shaking in fear as I try to believe that everything will be alright and that the journey--that I am milliseconds away from-- will be a fun, thrilling experience.

I try to believe that I can stand on my own two feet and brave the world by myself with my fists up and take everyday with stride and confidence. I ultimately want to know that I can find confidence, love, fun, and true friends who can ultimately be kind, caring, charitable people who know who they are and where they stand.

To be perfectly honest with who ever you are-- whether you are a stranger or someone i've known for ages-- all I can ever think about is the phrase:

"Just because everything is changing doesn't mean that it's never been this way before,"-Regina Spektor.

Which means basically that things have been constantly changing and we should be used to it-- but it doesn't stop me from worrying, because of course I have my mother's gift of extreme worry. That may seem strange to some of you but its true, I worry even though I know deep down that things have always been changing, I'm just not used to it and I don't think I ever will be.

So wish me luck and give me your love and help me know that I will be okay in the end, Thank you for all your support.


Sunday, June 12, 2011


Well hello friends!
Its been a while since I have posted anything so I thought that before I give myself a manicure that I would update everyone on what has been going on in my life and what is soon to be ;) First of all I just got back from Cancun, Mexico yesterday, which i spent most of my time laying by the pool relaxing and enjoying a good book and very hot weather (I was burnt to a crisp on tuesday so hence why I tried to stay out of the sun with my book). OH! And by the way the beaches in Cancun are to die for! They are the most white-sand-crystal-watered-beautiful beaches I have ever experienced! It was like a dream! Second order of business was that on Friday while traveling to Xel-Ha, pronounced 'shell ha', I found out that I GOT A JOB! I am so excited! It is in the call center/data entry at Xango and I can't wait to start! HA! I start tomorrow morning and I can't stand waiting but I'm also very nervous. I've never had a job so I hope I am good at it!