I used to do a lot of thinking, but never enough doing. I thought that dreamers were those who dreamt of becoming more, of doing more but never actually doing or becoming. I always wished and wanted but I could never finish something I started. It's sad to think that I wasted so much time on nothing, but that doesn't mean I have to quit, it just means that you admit the problem, think of a solution and follow through.
Sometimes life gets discouraging and knock you down, but you have to have the courage to stand up to the wrongs in life and realize that there are more reasons to get back up than there are to stay down. I probably already said this before but, I have been having a hard time making up my mind lately about, well, everything but I feel that I have found a solution.
One part of it was, I had some trouble keeping my love and interest of writing going. I have been taking a creative writing class here at school and it helped a little bit, but I was not as motivated, especially when I had got some bad critiques on one of my pieces. They pretty much bashed on the entirety of it and I was extremely upset. No one had ever been so mean and it hurt. It was like I had the wind knocked out of me and I felt that maybe writing wasn't for me. But, I kept going.
Yesterday we had another critique and the piece I wrote was well received, I had a lot of wonderful insights and some helpful tips but in all its was more of a boost of confidence for my writing. Because of this piece I think I am going to try turning it into a full length novel.
It's funny how you can get inspired from the most ordinary things. I guess that why people invented the word creativity. Taking something seeming so ordinary and being able to create something extrordinary out of it.
The other thing is that I have put myself outside of my comfort zone and outside my usual little box and signed up to run a half marathon in June! I am very excited because I have a problem with exercising. I am not very motivated to do it but I want to learn to become motivated. So I asked a couple of people to join me and I registered for the Utah Valley Half Marathon to keep me motivated to finish something I started. I am really happy because i am going to finally be able to cross something off my bucket list! And I get to spend it with people that I love dearly! Wish us luck!
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
This past weekend was one of the most fun weekends I have had since being up here (since I finished my homework pretty early). My weekend starts on Thursday, sort of, and this past Thursday I got to go horseback riding with some of my roommates!
(From left to right: Sydni, Me, Lara, Kayli)
It was so much fun and I was pretty sore afterwards, but the weather was absolutely perfect and it was so nice to hang out with my roommates for a couple of hours!
The horse I rode was named Chase and she was a beauty! I really didn't want to leave, it was amazing to be out with such incredible animals and the weather really was beautiful-- it could not have been better.
Then on Friday I had to do a bunch of homework but it was totally worth it because on Saturday there was conference and I got to go out to lunch with my roommate Kristina and her friends and then I volunteered at a women's walk on campus with my roommate Kayli and afterward we went up to her families cabin in Island Park and stayed the night with all of her family. It was so much fun to be around so many people when I was missing my own family in Utah. I felt like I was part of their family for the weekend and it was so nice of them to take me in! I was so happy everything worked out.
Even though I missed my family, because my dad ran the St. George Marathon on Saturday, I just had to tell my self I only had to hold out a couple more days because I get to go home this week to be with them which I am so excited to see them and spend this weekend with them! I can't wait!
Friday, October 5, 2012
I am acquiring a theme for this school semester which is "extremely hard and annoyingly difficult" (not to be complaining, more of just an observation) and I have decided that I need a motto to go along with this. I have decided that it would have to be:
"I don't need easy, I need possible."
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
I absolutely love Autumn and the time when the leaves start changing, the smells of warm cinnamon and nutmeg and getting ready for Halloween and Thanksgiving. The weather during Autumn is wonderful for running too, and it is just all so exciting! Though it's weird that it is already October, sometimes I wish that August and September didn't go by so fast, but it always does.
I am really looking forward to this weekend though, I love conference, not because you don't have to get dressed or leave the house all weekend but because I look forward to what the leaders of the church have to say and finding inspiration and answers in what their messages are. Plus I always feel so much better after conference and I look forward to the Ensign afterwards to read back over what they have said.
Also, I have a Creative Writing class that I am in right now and I can't get enough of it. It is the one class I truly look forward to going to, even when it is at 8:00 in the morning. I feel like every time I go to that class my creative juices are refueled and I feel my writing becomes more electric with rejuvenation! The teacher is great and I love his teaching style, it's very unconventional and emphasizes that the most important thing to do is write and receive constructive criticism to help our writing become stronger and more powerful. It's amazing how much my writing has improved and the ideas that are flowing out of me more often again. It has really helped me to fall in love with writing all over again and with more passion.