Just Thinking...

You know lately I have been thinking about my future and what is happening in my life and how everything is about to change and it will never be the same and it is frightening, refreshing, exuberayting, and quite frankly an intangible idea that my future is behind the next corner and yet I have no idea what to expect.

Plus, as of right now I am planning on college and going into an English Major so that I can write fantasy/fiction novels because it has been a passion of my for a long, long, long time but no one can really plan for what the future truly has in store for an individual and that is something that is exciting but also extremely terrifying all in one small seemingly sweet package.

I mean, what is there to say? Other than I put a brave face on when looking into the eyes of uncertainty and change but in the back of my head I picture my knees knocking together and my whole stature shaking in fear as I try to believe that everything will be alright and that the journey--that I am milliseconds away from-- will be a fun, thrilling experience.

I try to believe that I can stand on my own two feet and brave the world by myself with my fists up and take everyday with stride and confidence. I ultimately want to know that I can find confidence, love, fun, and true friends who can ultimately be kind, caring, charitable people who know who they are and where they stand.

To be perfectly honest with who ever you are-- whether you are a stranger or someone i've known for ages-- all I can ever think about is the phrase:

"Just because everything is changing doesn't mean that it's never been this way before,"-Regina Spektor.

Which means basically that things have been constantly changing and we should be used to it-- but it doesn't stop me from worrying, because of course I have my mother's gift of extreme worry. That may seem strange to some of you but its true, I worry even though I know deep down that things have always been changing, I'm just not used to it and I don't think I ever will be.

So wish me luck and give me your love and help me know that I will be okay in the end, Thank you for all your support.

xoxoxo

SUMMER UPDATE :)

Well hello friends!

Its been a while since I have posted anything so I thought that before I give myself a manicure that I would update everyone on what has been going on in my life and what is soon to be ;) First of all I just got back from Cancun, Mexico yesterday, which i spent most of my time laying by the pool relaxing and enjoying a good book and very hot weather (I was burnt to a crisp on tuesday so hence why I tried to stay out of the sun with my book). OH! And by the way the beaches in Cancun are to die for! They are the most white-sand-crystal-watered-beautiful beaches I have ever experienced! It was like a dream! Second order of business was that on Friday while traveling to Xel-Ha, pronounced 'shell ha', I found out that I GOT A JOB! I am so excited! It is in the call center/data entry at Xango and I can't wait to start! HA! I start tomorrow morning and I can't stand waiting but I'm also very nervous. I've never had a job so I hope I am good at it!

Hola Amigos! From SPAIN!

Hey everyone,
So this morning we got up, had breakfast, and then headed to the Charles de Gaulle Aeroport to fly to the beautiful Barcelona, Spain. It was pretty chilly this morning in Paris because of wind but it is warm and humid here in Barcelona-- there is even palm trees here and my dad and I decided that Tennis and futball (soccer) are the top sports here in Spain. We counted 29 tennis courts and 5 soccer fields just outside our hotel window.

Now I need to back track a little because I was too tired to write last night about my day... So yesterday my dad let me sleep in which was very nice of him. After getting ready and buying some water and 2 pain de chocolat (bread with chocolate) we headed out to the Metro to see the Tour Eiffel (Eiffel Tower). It is better than I imagined and it had a very long line to go up the ascenseur (elevator) so we decided to take a river cruise on the siene river to see all the really cool sites right on the river. The boat ride took an hour and was absolutely fabulous! I recommend doing the boat tour because it is so cool to see so many sites in a short amount of time. Afterwards we went back to the Tour Eiffel and walked up 674 steps to the second floor and then rode an elevator to the tip top and you could see everything from the top. Its so high up that you feel you are looking at the city from a birdseye view! Its wonderful! We decided to go to the sacre-coeur (a Catholic cathedral) which is at the top of a giant hill and see the city from there. They had little street shops there and it was beautiful. The cathedral was breathtaking and quite magnificent. It was a lovely site to see. After that we went through a candy and clothing shop and got a few things for our family and a little something for myself as well. After that we decided to go back to the Champs d'elysses and visit the Arc de Triomphe which was so cool to see and walk under it.
We took lots of pictures of all these places, so don't worry, I will put them up in the next few days when I get a chance. My dad has meeting here in Barcelona the next 3 days, so it will be one of the days that I don't go with him that i will have a chance to do it. I love and miss my Mom, my sisters, Shaelie, Camille, Makenna, and Brynlee and hope they are doing well. I thank you for your love and support and can't wait to see everyone. I will definately keep you posted on what is happening here!
Hugs and Kisses xoxox

Bonjour! From Paris!

Bonjour mon amie (hello friend)!
At this very moment I am sitting in a hotel room in PARIS! Can you believe it? I am at my dream destination at this very moment with my dad for my senior trip. We left on Tuesday the 24 of May 2:15 pm and we landed in Paris at 10:54 am on Wednesday the 25 of May (there is an eight hour difference between Utah and Paris.) Paris is absolutely lovely, the architecture, the history, the food is all amazing! I love it, but today hasn't been all that glittery and fun because I only got 2 hours of sleep and I have a monstrous headache at the moment, but truly don't get me wrong, I am very excited and appreciative of this trip
, its been quite an adventure already! So it all started when we were trying to find the metropolitan-- Metro for short, aka the french "subway"-- and we got terribly lost and were walking everywhere before we finally came to a cafe/pub and asked for directions. Unfortunately none of them spoke English except for one who could only say "right" but then one of them walked us through a map and then we finally found the Metro. Once there we had to ride a train to the rue rivoli (rivoli road) and then got lost trying to find Le musee de Louvre (the Louvre museum). But we finally found it and all was well. But after when we had walked all the way down the Champs d'elysees-- which is the road that has the arc d'triomphe and the shopping on it-- we had gotten dinner at pizza pino and dessert at Laduree we found another entreance to the Metro and again got lost... lucky us huh?? Any who, we finally made it back safely to our hotel where I washed my feet, put my pj's on and am now eating a religieuses rose which is fabulous!

I found a video!

So we were really tired one night quite a couple of months ago and decided to do something with my baby sister Brynlee. So the video was taken by me and my younger sisters shaelie and brynlee are the ones being filmed. (It is a piece of cookie crisp on shaelie's tongue by the way) P.S. I saw MIDWAY TO HEAVEN recently and it is really cute I reccomend you all should watch it :)

It's been a while... and it's random stuff time!

Okay so, I have been uber busy lately and haven't been able to put an update post in quite a long time so here is what you have missed... I have 30ish school days left until I graduate high school ;} I am going to the bahamas in 3 days to go on a Disney Cruise I am going to Europe the second to last week of May for my graduation trip with my dad My 3 week road trip across the U.S. of A. is in 2 1/2 months (Heritage Tours; I leave on July 4th) I have been accepted to BYU-Idaho and start September 12, i have the spring/fall track That is it for now...( I will elaborate on each when they are closer) I hope that satisfied some of you out there that were wondering what was up :) I will write soon, I promise! P.S. stay tuned for more about my life in the current.

Today's Quote:

"Just because something doesn't do what you planned it to dodoesn't mean it's useless." -- Thomas A. Edison
I love this quote because right now I feel sometimes like things in my life are not going how I wanted or planned them to be but this helps to see that it's okay if they aren't going my way because they are happening for the benefit of my personal well being. This is very comforting to read and then take a minute to pause and take a deep breath and say that everything will work out just fine, because in the end it will be.

Random SideBar...:)

So I was going through my pictures in my dad's computer and found a few pictures of me and they are all at different times during last year and it's funny to see my hair and how it changes :)

Here is the first: My Seventeenth Birthday in Rexburg Idaho, right across the street from BYU-I and the Rexburg LDS temple.

Here is the second: The morning that my senior year began (YEAH)!

The last but definately not least ;) This was at family photos, my singles shot. (My hair is getting SOOOOOO long you should see it now!)

P.S. I had Preference yesterday so I will put pictures of that up in the next week or so. I looked so pretty and so did my gorgeous BFFL Alex. And the boys looked very handsome as well, I had a lot of fun and I will have to tell you all about it when I put pictures up!

It's Been Quite a While

Well another year has past and I am breaking yet another promise to myself (as you may recall from a few posts ago). I promised to blog everyday and I didn't hold up to it. But surely in the new year spirit I can redeem myself. I have been putting it off, being lazy, and just plain making excuses of being too stressed and loaded with homework and school that I haven't written in a long, long time. But, that is about to change, because I pledge to be devoted to writing. Many people lately have been asking me if I am still writing my novel that I started years ago and the answer was always "no" and then they proceeded to question why, again I would respond that I was just too busy, when in reality I really wasn't. I was just lazy as can be, which that part of me is done with--gone for good, I'm ready to take on new challenges and write with a refreshed passion. I am growing and changing and today marks the beginning of a new day and a new way :) I hope you have a lovely day, I know I will!

Quote of the Day:

"Do not be awestruck by other people and try to copy them.Nobody can be you as efficiently as you can." -- Norman Vincent Peale

This quote came in an email today and I had a lightbulb moment because I am filling out college applications and I kept thinking that every body is smarter and better than me and just tearing my self down and I read this quote and I now feel much better. So I hope if you were having a bad day today too that this cheered you up because I know it sure did for me :)